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Sunday, January 30, 2011


Energy Share for Sunday
January 30, 2011


The one change we cannot change is change itself.
No moment, however perfect, can be maintained.
Life moves on and moves on and moves us with it.

We are all works in progress, all developing parts of a perfect plan.
Only as we surrender to change can we find permanence and peace.
Only by being open to the fierce flow of life can we find the steadying current.
The one thing that remains the same is that nothing remains the same.
As we accept and acknowledge life's passing nature,
we are freed to cherish the moments that pass in bittersweet glory.

No matter how difficult, life is beautiful.
No matter how beautiful, life is difficult.

This is the great paradox that opens the heart and brings compassion.
We are all travelers on the vast and shifting sands of time.
We are all inconsequential and important, very small and very large.
Our transitions are like octaves building brilliantly upon each other.
We are life's music, so let us dance.

Today, I sing the song of change. I celebrate each moment as it passes.
Today, I am a syllable of time and my voice is heard.

Julia Cameron

Today, I send a heartfelt boost of joy and gratitude to share in this moment. And by openly embracing the energy shared with you, I receive it with heartfelt thanks. As we recall the learned wisdom of our past in anticipation of our collective future, let us live in this moment together with awareness, acceptance, and creative intention.

Namaste, (I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells),

Lydia


1. Lydia Smith-Lenardson, Moreno Valley, California, USA
2. Amy Manuel, Melbourne, Victoria, Australia
3. Andy Cooper, Guangzhou, Guangdong Province, China
4. Annette Maxwell Hobart, Tasmania, Australia
5. Austin Ndego, Lagos, Nigeria
6. Brian Yeates, Dublin, Ireland
7. Carol Gent, Lancashire, England, UK
8. Denise Matthews, Nottinghamshire, UK
9. Donna Pfeiffer, Venice, Florida, USA
10. Dunni Olasehan, Lagos, Nigeria
11. Egon Russell, Adelaide, Alabama, USA
12. Eileen To, Middlesex, Alabama, UK
13. Eve Hale, Hampshire, England, UK
14. Grant Luckey, Charlotte, North Carolina, USA
15. Gudrun Gudmundsdottir, San Diego, California, USA
16. Gurjinder Strom, Miami, Florida, USA
17. Heidi Fruhling, Ft. Collins, Colorado, USA
18. Hillary Bisaillon, Yorktown, Virginia, USA
19. Janet Evans, Fort Walton Beach, Florida, USA
20. Janet Henningsen, Indialantic, Florida, USA
21. Janet Kinge, Basingstoke, UK
22. Janice Trenair, Koroit, Victoria, Australia
23. Joan Anderson, Washington, District of Columbia, USA
24. Joseph Bennett, Ventura, California, USA
25. Judy Oliver, Silver Spring, MD, USA
26. Karen Saldanha, Corona, California, USA
27. Karen Sheppard, St. John's, Newfoundland/Labrador, Canada
28. Kim Lerman, North Highlands, California, USA
29. Kim McCluskey, Tucson, Arizona, USA
30. Kyle James, Bel Air, Maryland, USA
31. Lena Goon, Alberta, Canada
32. Linda Cromer, The Villages, Florida, USA
33. Linda Prucha, Omaha, Nebraska, USA
34. Lynda Truthseekir, Los Angeles, California
35. Lynn Wilson, Manchester, England, UK
36. Madhurima Bhatnagar, Fremont, California, USA
37. Maree Rogers, Hastings, Westernport Bay, Australia
38. Margaret McGuire, Cooma, New South Wales, Australia
39. Mari Hayama, Berkeley, California, USA
40. Mark Woit, Nuermberg, Bavaria
41. Matthew Leonard, Vermont, USA
42. Meelah Rasheed, Columbia, South Carolina, USA
43. Mirjam Kik, Oude Tonge, The Netherlands
44. Moira Congreve, England, UK
45. Monica Hernandez Estrada, Corona, California, USA
46. Natasha Adair, Olney Springs, Colorado, USA
47. Nathan Norton, Wentworth Falls, New South Wales, Australia
48. Nieema and Jan Thasing, Elkton, South Dakota, USA
49. Pamela Clements, Westminster, Colorado, USA
50. Patricia Blundon, Pembroke,Ontario
51. Pauline Leung, England, UK
52. Rebecca Cochran, Findlay, Ohio, USA
53. Rene Beauchemin, Alabama, Tomono, Canada
54. Rev. Patricia Lusher, Berlin, Vermont, USA
55. Rosemary Barton, Salt Lake City, Utah, USA
56. Sandy Kolman, Belleville, Illinois, USA
57. Sheryl Morris, Calgary, Alberta, Canada
58. Silvia Weisz, Melbourne, Australia
59. Sister Mary Mebane, Santa Maria, California, USA
60. Steve and Karen Edwards, Gunnislake, Cornwall, England
61. Theresa Johnson, Salisbury, Maryland, USA
62. Tiffany Wardle Croydon, Surrey, England, UK
63. Velanthas, Manila, Philippines
64. Venkataramadas Vivekanand, Chennai, India
65. Vera Murrell, Friendsville, Tennessee, USA
66. Veronica Hansen, Sarina, Queensland, Australia
67. Violet Moreau, Pembroke,Ontario
68. Y.Nowshad, Kollam Kerala,India
69. Zachary Buchholz, Chicago, IL, USA

Friday, January 28, 2011

Thursday, January 27, 2011

This research study appears encouraging although it only shows its potential in acute cases.  There is no evidence to show its effectiveness for treatment well after the onset of the spinal cord injury, even in combination therapy.  So I won't be holding my breath and just keep doing what I'm doing in turning to alternative medicine....Here's an excerpt. 


By Rachael Rettner
The cancer drug Taxol stimulates the growth of nerve cells in the spine after a spinal cord injury, and reduces scarring in these cells, according to a new study in rats. 

While much more research is needed, including work to understand whether the same process occurs in people, the chemotherapy drug (also known by its generic name paclitaxel) holds promise as a future treatment for spinal cord injuries, the researchers said.

It also improved the rats' ability to walk. After six to eight weeks of treatment, the researchers gave the rats a test in which they were required to walk on sticks. Normally, rats can do this well, but after a specific type of spinal cord injury, their back paw tends to misstep and slip through the pencils. The injured rats treated with Taxol frequency made fewer of these missteps, Bradke said.

The study is novel and interesting and "opens up a new avenue towards a potential therapy, combined with others, of course, that can help foster regeneration after spinal cord injury," said Jerry Silver, a professor of neuroscience at Case Western University in Cleveland, Ohio, who was not involved with the study.

The study was published today (Jan. 27) in Science Express, the advance online publication of the journal Science. Pass it on: The drug Taxol holds promise as a therapy for spinal cord injuries, though further research in humans is needed.

Follow MyHealthNewsDaily staff writer Rachael Rettner on Twitter @Rachael_MHND.

Read the complete article:  http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/41298469/ns/health-cancer/
 

Sunday, January 23, 2011


Energy Share for Sunday
January 23, 2011




All beginning is an ending. I both celebrate and grieve. As I choose to start anew in a job, a relationship, a home, I choose to believe in my own resilience. I choose to trust the generosity of life. Calling upon Spirit to supply me, I encounter fulfillment of my wishes, needs and wants.

Spirit has abundant supply for my heart's desires. It is the pleasure of Spirit to give. It is my gift back to Spirit to accept. In an antique shop, I find a crystal globe, an antique map that speaks to me of a world lit only by firelight. On a beach, I find the fragile shell washed to me from warmer climes. The falling leaf, vivid and transitory, reminds me of life's cyclicality. A neighbor's wriggling puppy licks my hand. I accept the generosity of Spirit. I allow my life to be made anew.

Today, I embrace the beginning of a better life. I release my grip on the past and open my hand to receive the new. I accept the seeds of the future.

Julia Cameron, "Transitions: Prayers and Declarations for a Changing Life"


Today I send a boost to share with you uplifting, expansive energy and you may call on it at anytime throughout the week. Use the boost to infuse yourself with clarity to conquer confusion, achieve success and confident belief over failure, doubt and pain. Let us choose simplicity over complication and drama to experience a deep and abiding happiness within ourselves and in our lives. I embrace the energy boost from you and gratefully acknowledge your presence in this tremendous circle of energy. What a joy it is to take part in this share with you.

I'm back on the blog, ready for a year of new discoveries, accomplishments and celebration. My new beginning for the year is the fruition of months of writing and editing an amazing book project. A dear friend and fellow practitioner, Michael Robert Lawrence, and I have coauthored and published a new book entitled "The Universal Happiness Method: How to Be Happy and Live without Stress". It's based on Michael's profound revelations from a series of traumatic experiences that he endured to regain conscious control of his mind and find happiness within.

Everyone deserves to be happy, and our mission is to spread happiness across the globe through the The Universal Happiness Method Teachings and enrich the lives of people everywhere. Checkout the website, http://www.theuniversalhappinessmethod.com, and order your copy. It's a downloadable ebook and a short read. I'm writing under the pen name Lilia Nani Ho'alakahi along with a Facebook account under the same name. I'll be setting up a page called 'The Universal Happiness Method' where you can post your feedback and share your insights.

Enjoy the previous posts and please feel free to post your comments at any time, they are a joy to read.

Namaste, (I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells),

Lydia


1. Lydia Smith-Lenardson, Moreno Valley, California, USA
2. Amy Manuel, Melbourne, Victoria, Australia
3. Andy Cooper, Guangzhou, Guangdong Province, China
4. Annette Maxwell Hobart, Tasmania, Australia
5. Austin Ndego, Lagos, Nigeria
6. Brian Yeates, Dublin, Ireland
7. Carol Gent, Lancashire, England, UK
8. Denise Matthews, Nottinghamshire, UK
9. Donna Pfeiffer, Venice, Florida, USA
10. Dunni Olasehan, Lagos, Nigeria
11. Egon Russell, Adelaide, Alabama, USA
12. Eileen To, Middlesex, Alabama, UK
13. Eve Hale, Hampshire, England, UK
14. Grant Luckey, Charlotte, North Carolina, USA
15. Gudrun Gudmundsdottir, San Diego, California, USA
16. Gurjinder Strom, Miami, Florida, USA
17. Heidi Fruhling, Ft. Collins, Colorado, USA
18. Hillary Bisaillon, Yorktown, Virginia, USA
19. Janet Evans, Fort Walton Beach, Florida, USA
20. Janet Henningsen, Indialantic, Florida, USA
21. Janet Kinge, Basingstoke, UK
22. Janice Trenair, Koroit, Victoria, Australia
23. Joan Anderson, Washington, District of Columbia, USA
24. Joseph Bennett, Ventura, California, USA
25. Judy Oliver, Silver Spring, MD, USA
26. Karen Saldanha, Corona, California, USA
27. Karen Sheppard, St. John's, Newfoundland/Labrador, Canada
28. Kim Lerman, North Highlands, California, USA
29. Kim McCluskey, Tucson, Arizona, USA
30. Kyle James, Bel Air, Maryland, USA
31. Lena Goon, Alberta, Canada
32. Linda Cromer, The Villages, Florida, USA
33. Linda Prucha, Omaha, Nebraska, USA
34. Lynda Truthseekir, Los Angeles, California
35. Lynn Wilson, Manchester, England, UK
36. Madhurima Bhatnagar, Fremont, California, USA
37. Maree Rogers, Hastings, Westernport Bay, Australia
38. Margaret McGuire, Cooma, New South Wales, Australia
39. Mari Hayama, Berkeley, California, USA
40. Mark Woit, Nuermberg, Bavaria
41. Matthew Leonard, Vermont, USA
42. Meelah Rasheed, Columbia, South Carolina, USA
43. Mirjam Kik, Oude Tonge, The Netherlands
44. Moira Congreve, England, UK
45. Monica Hernandez Estrada, Corona, California, USA
46. Natasha Adair, Olney Springs, Colorado, USA
47. Nathan Norton, Wentworth Falls, New South Wales, Australia
48. Nieema and Jan Thasing, Elkton, South Dakota, USA
49. Pamela Clements, Westminster, Colorado, USA
50. Patricia Blundon, Pembroke,Ontario
51. Pauline Leung, England, UK
52. Rebecca Cochran, Findlay, Ohio, USA
53. Rene Beauchemin, Alabama, Tomono, Canada
54. Rev. Patricia Lusher, Berlin, Vermont, USA
55. Rosemary Barton, Salt Lake City, Utah, USA
56. Sandy Kolman, Belleville, Illinois, USA
57. Sheryl Morris, Calgary, Alberta, Canada
58. Silvia Weisz, Melbourne, Australia
59. Sister Mary Mebane, Santa Maria, California, USA
60. Steve and Karen Edwards, Gunnislake, Cornwall, England
61. Theresa Johnson, Salisbury, Maryland, USA
62. Tiffany Wardle Croydon, Surrey, England, UK
63. Velanthas, Manila, Philippines
64. Venkataramadas Vivekanand, Chennai, India
65. Vera Murrell, Friendsville, Tennessee, USA
66. Veronica Hansen, Sarina, Queensland, Australia
67. Violet Moreau, Pembroke,Ontario
68. Y.Nowshad, Kollam Kerala,India
69. Zachary Buchholz, Chicago, IL, USA


Friday, January 21, 2011

Women, Nature and the Body
by Barbara Sellers-Young PhD
posted January 17, 2011


Dance is a metaphor for life. As we are born, we are destined to move in life through time and space. As we learn to dance, we are also learning to move through time and space. Thus, the process of learning to dance can bring us information about living our lives, if we allow it to. We can learn how to move through our lives with fearless autonomy, grace and spirit; to flow with the melody line, be in the stillness or ride the chaos; to overcome the fear that puts us on the sidelines. We can listen to the voice in our head that says, I CAN DANCE!

- Delilah 2008

Gathered in a circle, thirty women define hips and torsos as they move in a counter clockwise circle as the drum keeps up a steady rhythm. Shaking their shoulders, they gather into the center of the circle and back out again returning once more to the movements of hip and torso. Within the room there is a deep concentration and quiet dignity in the bodies of the dancers as Delilah’s choreography for ‘Birthing and Reclaiming Dance’ is repeated again and again. The dancers have come to the big island of Hawaii, to the quiet of the 120 acre Kalani retreat to be guided by Delilah in a communion with each other and with nature. The dance retreat is, for Delilah, an eighteen-year commitment to bringing women to an environment away from the distractions of their daily lives that allows them to investigate their  relationship to their personal natures through an environment set in nature. This dedication to dance in nature is an extension of a philosophy of the feminine evolved from years of personal study which has included such authors as Joseph Campbell, Marjita Gimbutas and Barbara Walker while living in the Pacific Northwest city of Seattle, a city in which she is a teacher, performer and political activist.

Delilah’s initial introduction to belly dance took place while working her way through college as a hair dresser. In 1972, one of her clients told her about a class that was being offered at Grossmont Junior College and helped her enroll for the course taught by Scheherazade. It was a movement vocabulary that came easy to her and she was soon being asked by a group of Lebanese musicians based in San Diego to perform with them as entertainment for family gatherings such as birthdays and weddings. Soon she was also approached by a group of Greek musicians to perform with them at a San Diego restaurant. Like other dancers who started performing in the 1960s and 70s, she learned by doing. She had the opportunity to gather new vocabulary from the different dancers who were performing with her. After performing in venues throughout the United States, she permanently settled in Seattle in the 1980s.

Delilah’s involvement with belly dance is a celebration of the Earth. She is involved in environmental activism and in 1993, she entered and won the National Public Radio broadcast on the environment; more recently, she sent letters to the mayor of Seattle and the governor of the state of Washington with a suggestion of how to solve the increasing energy crisis. Her definition of the earth’s consciousness is not narrow but expansive. Recently, in an interview, I asked her whether or not she ever did site specific industrial performances. I anticipated a negative response. Instead, she replied “there is nothing on the planet that is not an extension of Gaia consciousness. This includes contrivances some might consider aberrant. To celebrate earth and the goddess is to celebrate her in all her aspects.”1

Energy through the Legs and Torso

Archeologist Marija Gimbutas writes in The Goddesses and Gods of Old Europe (1982) that “The teaching of Western civilization starts with the Greeks and rarely do people ask themselves what forces lay behind these beginnings”. One of the goals of Gimbutas’ research into the myths and related artistry of old Europe was to consider what aspects of the old were still extant in the modern world.

Delilah’s project is a similar reclamation in a desire to reconnect the body of the dancer with the primal belief in a relationship between the body as body and body as an ‘extension of’ and an ‘at oneness with’ the earth and its forces. This belief in the force of the earth is central to Delilah’s approach to teaching belly dance.

In Delilah’s approach, the power of the earth moves from the feet into the pelvis and from this place of creativity throughout the upper torso, arms and head. As she phrases it, the energy moves as “if water were gushing through the body connecting you from your kinesthetic awareness to the great web of life and related creativity.”3 The basic stance to create this movement of energy comes from acknowledging the center line of the body that penetrates the head, torso and pelvis. This central core she illustrates by using a pole to demonstrate this vertical dimension.

The pelvis is engaged around this core through a release of the knees and the movement of the coccyx which allows for what she refers to as slack in the area between the knees and the rib cage. The slack created by this position allow the hips and pelvis to move fluidly in a variety of directions that she suggests emerges from an internal mapping of the individual’s creative forces.

The circles, spirals, twists, lifts, shimmies are an expression of the complex muscle system that integrates the pelvic floor with the spine and provides the strength for women to hold and give forth life. Delilah guides the students through what she refers to as ‘mapping the internal realms of the body,’ a process that unites the individual consciousness with a kinesthetic experience in an enhancement of a dancer’s felt presence.

These internal dimensions of consciousness are not new in Delilah’s conception of the female body. They are expressions of the ontology of the female principle in history as expressed through the body and reminiscent of ancient symbols archeologist Marija Gimbutas brought to public attention in her books on the goddess cults of Europe.4 Using examples of symbolic shapes of spirals, triangles, circles, and double spirals borrowed from the illustrations provided by Gimbutas’ writing, Delilah helps the dancer to traverse these ancient internal pathways within the spaces of her body. The culmination of this deep, internal, kinesthetic awareness of the energies within the pelvis and hips is a journey through the labyrinth.

Although most often associated with the Cretan myth of King Minos and Minotaur, the elaborate design of the labyrinth was symbolically etched on the walls of caves as well as incorporated into the designs of ancient and contemporary pottery. Historically, labyrinths were used to trap malevolent spirits, define a path for a ritual dance or in medieval times symbolize a path to God.

The average medieval person could not afford to travel to holy sites and lands, so labyrinths and prayer substituted for such travel. Labyrinths are used by modern mystics to help achieve a contemplative state of transcendence. Walking among the turnings, one loses track of direction and of the outside world, and thus focuses the internal energy. This is the state that Delilah, through the labyrinth exploration, guides the dancer. Yet, it is also her goal for the dancer to experience a revelatory awareness of the labyrinth as a representation of the complex interweaving of the energy body, which is a corporeal version of the labyrinth.

She expands the dancer’s internal mapping of consciousness by borrowing from nineteenth century French movement theorist François Delsarte’s system of connecting the inner emotional experience of the dancer with the various parts of the body in order to give ‘voice to the body’. Within this system, the body is initially divided up first by the head as the origination of the intellectual, spiritual and mystical, the torso as the emotive and personal, and the legs as the vital relationship to the earth. There are further divisions of the torso into upper torso intellectual, middle torso emotive and lower torso vital. This organization is reversed in the legs and feet, as the upper leg is the vital, the calf and knees the emotive and the feet reflecting an intelligent relationship to the earth. The arm is in a similar correspondence as the legs, with the vital connection in the upper arm and its attachment to the torso, the emotive in the forearm and the intelligence represented by the hands and fingers. The head is also divided into three areas with the forehead and the eyes as the place of intelligence, the cheeks as emotive and the chin and neck with its connection to the torso as vital.

Delilah teaches dancers to engage these different areas by guiding them through an ongoing improvisation that begins with the hips and pelvis and moves up and out through the head, arms and hands. As the dancers improvise, she encourages them to explore the various energetic pathways of their body. She reminds them to appreciate the support and balance provided by the legs and how the placement of the feet impacts the alignment of the pelvis, hips and torso. She asks them to feel the emotions coming from their central torso, supported by the upper arm and acknowledged by the forearm before the hands add the final communicative touch. She also points out “that where the eyes go has a lot to do with commanding the body.”5 She expands on this advice by noting that the direction and gaze of the eyes communicate a relationship between a dancer and their body and the dancer and the audience. As she guides them through a deeper relationship, she never critiques their personal method of exploration. Delilah’s goal for the dancer is to bring them to a conscious realization of a deep internal knowing that ultimately empowers them and allows them to creatively express their unique individuality in dance and in life.

Empowering Lives

To many, there is a rich feminine antiquity associated with its image, one that projects world heritage and a long lost esoteric past. These powers are due to be returned to us. The simple truth is that this is a beautiful dance art honoring life and the feminine experience….. When women get the wisdom of this truth then a whole world opens up to them. Woman = Body = Vessel = World. -Delilah 6

Empowering others is a central theme of Delilah’s approach to teaching belly dance. It is an extension of her liberal upbringing in which she was taught to be inquisitive and investigate the possibilities inherent in any idea. For example, she comments, “We read the Bible, but not as absolute truth, but as one way of knowing.”7 In her frame of reference, there are many ways of experiencing life and her goal is to help those who study with her to discover their personal potential.

Initially, she acts as a guide for the dancers in their individual discovery, but she enlarges their experience of empowerment in group explorations that commune with nature and ultimately in celebrations that bring the ethos of her teaching to the community of Seattle and beyond.

The group explorations require that the dancers take responsibility for the bodies of one another. One example is an exploration she refers to as ‘veil therapy.’ It is one she discovered while teaching a class for children in which her youngest daughter was participating. Delilah needed to find away of attending to her daughter without disturbing the flow of the class. Her solution was to have her daughter lie down in the middle of the floor while the other children carefully draped and removed large pieces of light fabric, referred to as veils. When the last veil was removed, her daughter sat up saying she was all better. It is now an exploration that she includes in her classes, retreats and workshops both in Seattle and in international venues.

The kinesthetic awareness the dancer has learned in mapping the internal dimension of the self is shared with the recipient of the veil therapy, as individuals or groups of two or more carefully lift three foot long pieces of light fabric and place the fabric across the body of the fellow dancer lying on their back on the floor. They then slowly pull the fabric over the dancer’s body. The fabric may cover the entire body or only sections. The different arrangements of the fabric provide a varied kinesthetic experience for the dancer on the floor. The dancers focus throughout the exercise is one of empathetic intensity as they silently respond to each other. This same focus is brought to other ensemble work in which the dancers are required to stay physically connected to each other while they improvise to music. Dancers learn to extend an internal focus outward from self to other and ultimately to nature.

Dance and Nature

We must remember the chemical connections between ourselves and the stars, between the beginning and now. We must remember and reactivate the primal consciousness of oneness between all living things. Barbara Mor. 8

Delilah’s approach to nature lies within the framework of one branch of eco-feminism in its exploration of women’s relationship to nature. Thus, one of the primary places to discover the potential of the self is in nature and for this reason Delilah organizes opportunities for women from around the world to dance in and with nature. As she phrases it:

"The process of dancing in nature is to be in-tune with the natural world around you, to invite nature in to inspire your dance. The student learns there is a difference between dancing with nature and dancing in front of nature. The more experience one develops, the closer one is able to come to the earth. The illusionary barrier that separates humankind from nature thins, and the realization of our sacred inter-connectedness with absolutely everything takes over".9

Within the dance and nature retreats she organizes, the above is realized in sunrise rituals as well as dances in the sea, gardens and forests. The dancers are in each instance taking the deep, internal, kinesthetic experience of nature imagery provided in the studio–the hips as earth revolving around the body’s sun core or the positioning of the arms as hugging a redwood tree–to an interaction with nature. Their quest is to allow a personal correspondence between the movements of their body and that of the tides and waves of the ocean or in relationship to the grass, trees, and other plant life. In the process of dancing in nature, they discover, as Delilah phrases it, the ‘sacred-interconnectedness’ between self and the environment. She believes this realization can lead to a transformation of consciousness that empowers the life of the dancer as it increases their appreciation for their place within the earth’s scheme. At the same time this expanded sense of self enlarges their sense of empathetic response to the earth and its fragility.

Delilah’s political activism is not limited to providing an experience for dancers within studio and natural environments. Her philosophy of the ‘self in the world’ extends to dancers being politically active in the world.

In a recent gathering of dancers in Hawaii, Delilah asked if anyone knew just how many belly dancers there were in the world and speculated on what a political force they could be if they all united in common cause. What would happen she asked if instead of signing peace and environmental agreements on a piece of paper, governments were required to sign them over the belly of a pregnant woman? She added, “The symbolism of the belly and the consequences to the future generation would not get lost as it sometimes does.”10

Delilah makes this image of the belly public in her involvement with events such as the Fremont Summer Solstice Parade at Street Faire in Seattle. The Summer Solstice Parade and Pageant is an annual event sponsored and produced by the Fremont Arts Council (FAC), an organization that supports the arts and artists in the Fremont neighborhood where Delilah has her studio. Started in 1989 by Barbara Luecke and Peter Toms, the parade quickly grew to over 80,000 participants. This local event with an international reputation is held the Saturday prior to summer solstice and culminates in the two-day Fremont Fair, a benefit for the Fremont Public Association. The event is distinguished by a sense of freedom in which anything goes, with the exception of no printed words or logos, animals (except guide animals), motorized vehicles, weapons or advertisements.

Delilah’s contribution has been to participate with other dancers from Seattle and elsewhere in theme based performances that are integrated into the parade. More recently, she has been referring to their performance as the ‘Billion Belly March’ as the number of dancers has increased to over 200 plus participants. Each year is a different theme. In 1999, it was the color blue and within this focus the dancers acknowledged the ‘Tuareg’of North Africa in deep blue costumes, in 2004 the dancers dressed in red as the symbol of women’s power. Delilah’s message to the dancers that year was:

"We are living in perilous times. They could very well be some of the last days. We cannot keep running things in the ways of the past. We need new energy, we need new ideas and creativity. We need women to be more present. We need the Mother energy. It is time for women to step up and take their turn. It isn’t even a choice anymore, it is a responsibility….. Start talking to each other about politics more. Don’t be afraid to voice your opinion and to influence women around you. We all have power! We all have opportunities for influence. What is your power? Define it for yourself! Use it! I am using my power by influencing you now. I say, ‘Make sure you are a registered voter!’ I’m not saying how to vote. I’m saying USE YOUR POWER!"11

A symbol of this power was the 2007 project to build a model of an ancient Egyptian temple which could be set up and taken down as the parade moved through the streets of Seattle. Over 200 dancers from across the United States participated. Some of these dancers received a DVD prior to the event that taught the choreography to be used in the dance. All of the dancers converged in Seattle prior to the Fremont parade to rehearse and to participate in a ten-day combination of workshops and classes. Delilah is planning an even larger events for the future such as the 2008 event dedicated to Peace in support of the woman’s organization Code Pink and using the color hot fuschia pink. Dancers will come from a variety of styles within the belly dance community from tribal to ethnic to cabaret. As with earlier projects, Delilah’s goal is to revise the vision of women as incapable of taking on the issues of the day, and replace it with but an image of a woman who like in Delilah’s image of Aphrodite is “pleasant, feminine, and charming,” but is also “powerful.”12

Controlling the Image

The powerful images on TV, in movies and magazines can throw us into obsessions and insecurities about our looks, age, weight, and economic or professional status. Ignored are real values such as nourishing our creative spirits, practicing compassion and care-taking of our families, communities, and our earth.

Delilah 13

Delilah communicates with the global belly dance community through her website titled Visionary Dance Productions. She created the website and associated production company in order to promote the image of her philosophy and her approach to the dance. An image that is resistant to mainstream television. For example, Delilah was able to perform and record “The Dance to the Great Mother,” a piece she performed at concerts in the Seattle area in 1985 when she was pregnant with her second child. In conversations, she notes it was not a project that would have been supported by the average production company as it does not reflect the media image of the seductive belly dancer. The video performance does, however, represent Delilah’s aesthetic philosophy of the magnificence of the female body and its ability to be creative whether in giving birth or in devising solutions to social problems. Besides which, twenty-five percent of the profits are designated to support women’s causes through ‘Birth and Life’ women’s shelters and the March of Dimes.

Beyond allowing her to promote video and digital projects about which she is passionate, the website also provides opportunities for correspondence between Delilah and the dancers from across the globe in blogs and in a large interactive group of essays referred to as Alexandra’s Library, a reference to the famous library of Egypt. The essays in the collection are by Delilah and other dancers. They incorporate personal reflections of individual dancers’ experiences of dancing in nature, the role of the dance in empowering their lives, references to dancing and pregnancy, dancing and body image, and health in general. The site is also where those interested in the Fremont Parade and ‘Billion Belly March’ stay in contact with each other.

The extensive web and production services also include a series of DVD’s that offer different levels of instruction and performances by Delilah as well as CD’s by musicians based in North Africa and the Middle East (Hakim Yaho) and renditions by American musicians (Sirocco, House of Tarab, Brothers of the Baladi), some which fall into the global beat category such as Necmi Cavli. She also sells belly dance accessories–costumes, veils, etc. Income generated from web sales is a fundamental supplement to the classes and workshops she teaches in Seattle and elsewhere.

Stay flexible in body, mind and spirit

Each stage of a woman’s life brings something unique: The strength and agile beauty of youth, to the zophtic, sensual nurturance and wealth of experience in mid-life, to the wise woman cultivated by charisma and maturity, and much more.

Delilah 14

One afternoon as the dancers in the Hawaii workshop were sharing their stories about the significance of dance in their lives, Delilah suggested that a flexible body helps evolve a flexible mind and spirit. A flexible stance is necessary to understanding the complex interrelationship between earth, wind, water, plants, and animals and, therefore, provides an opportunity for individuals to explore the possibilities of the flexible integration of their body, mind and spirit. This is a ‘state of being’ Delilah brings to her performance as dancer, teacher, artist, and political activist. She has not limited herself to specific stages or venues or styles. Instead, she has performed in the restaurants, on stages in choreographed pieces, created movement rituals, and performed in other venues that allow an expression of the joy and power within of female body. In this variety of performance modes, she serves to remind the dancers who work with her not only to stay flexible, but that they are the embodiment of earth’s consciousness.

Footnotes
1, 2- Personal Communication, September 1998.
3. Personal Statement from Absolute Beginning Bellydance
4. The Books by Marija Gimbutas The Living Goddesses, The Language of the Goddess, and The Goddesses and the Gods of Old Europe inspired many women during the second wave of feminism.
5. Delilah’s observation in retreat class, January 2008.
6. Delilah, http://www.visionarydance.com/revivingophelia.html, 2008
7. Delilah’s observation in retreat class, January 2008.
8. The Great Cosmic Mother: Rediscovering the Religion of the Earth, New York, Harper and Row, 1987.
9. Personal Communication, September 1998.
10. Delilah’s observation in retreat class, January 2008.
11, 12, 13, 14 Delilah. http://www.visionarydance.com various pages

Tuesday, January 18, 2011


Beacons of Light—January 2011

New Body Electrics
Physical / Electrical Evolution


From Steve

I went into this channel with very little direction as to what this was to be. I knew we would most likely talk about the physical body changes and much of that has been up for me lately. I have been having strange problems like killing batteries in remote controls; many human interfaces do not seem to work for me, especially electrical ones. For a person in the Audio Video world this is very challenging. Sometimes the computer works and sometimes it does not, and forget about touchpads!

When the group started this channel I had no idea that it would mean so much to me personally. They led you through several days of my life that were very confusing. This channel explained and tied together several of the group’s more important messages for all of us, and for me personally they explained what I have been experiencing in my own world. There were two different  points during the channel that they had to calm me down as I was getting so excited at the revelations I  was seeing. I will explain it more in detail at the next VirtualLight Broadcast, but these odd electrical  events in my life seem to have rhyme and reason after all.

I believe that the details contained in this single message will be cornerstone information that will become important to all of us in the near future.

We hope you all have a wonderful holiday season! We consider you family and appreciate the opportunity to greet you in this way.

Very Big Hugs,

Steve Rother




Greetings from Home.

This day ranks among the top, for many of you have changed your energy entirely. You have stopped the busy hustle of your own lives for just a moment to revel in the past and to re-member all the beauty you have experienced, then to turn around and raise your expectations for the future.  These are the expectations that are creating your future right now. They are determining your path everywhere you go; they are setting aside opportunities for you to experience everything you wanted to in this physical bubble of biology.

Grounding Light
To just allow yourself to be we would like you to take a deep breath, an Earth breath into a physical body, for just a moment and simply allow yourself to be here in this moment right now. With all of the anticipation of what will be, it is very easy for humans to drop into their past or to project themselves into the future. Only one of those three—past, present and future?is real. That is right now. Your memories of the past are very real, but you cannot live in them. Your expectations of the future are very real and important, but you cannot live in them either. You can live here, right now, and blend the three. We ask you to try not to live only in the present time, for that will become very challenging. Most of you actually create the path in front of you when you plan expect, or create something. If you are busy enjoying this moment that does not happen as well, so we ask you to understand that it is a blend of these: past,  present and future. It is not black and white, so you cannot choose only one; it is a union of the three. We will speak more of this as we go forward. First let us back up and tell you why it is changing, and why your perception of time as humans will be shifting very soon.

We wish to bring together several different pieces that we have spoken of before. Now it will be easier to understand, for much of it you are already familiar with. Even though you may not know exactly how this fits into your daily life, you have accepted much of what we have spoken as truth in your own lives which has created a foundation for a new human to evolve. It is happening all over the planet, because now is the time when humans can carry more of their own spirit in their physical body than they ever have before.

Physical Evolution

There are also several physical changes that are taking place to better accommodate this energy shift, and it is happening every to human being on the planet. Your physical body is beginning to change now, yet it will probably be several years before your medical community can quantify these changes; medical communities typically move very slowly on purpose. Much of what you have been expecting what you call ascension?is possible so that you can bring this light into a physical body walking around on Earth.

Redistribution of Water

Yes, you will always have limitations. You are on this side of the veil, so you must be in the timeline.  Although that timeline can be changed as you well know, for you have just changed the timeline of Earth which was to end around the year 2012. You have already shifted that, but yes you are still experiencing many of the things that were going to bring about the end. So many of the shifts and changes you are seeing on your planet, particularly having to do with the re-distribution of water and the re-balancing of the planet, are taking place on a daily basis right now. You are also establishing so many connections with the energy that we call water; yet you do not classify it as energy even though it fits all the  classifications to what you know to be energy. Water exists on both sides of the veil as does all energy. You have been able to carry the spirit of your higher self in your physical body, largely due to the amount of water energy that you carry in your bodies. 

That is beginning to change, for this is one of the physical attributes that will be very easily quantified and measured as time goes forward for humans. You have been comfortable with a certain amount of water in your body, but this water also brings you the grounding of physical Earth. Your emotional levels are actually attached to the physical water. It is how you have been processing emotions through your body, and how you receive emotions from other people through your body. Have you ever been in a theatre where you know perfectly well there are people sitting behind you but you pay no attention to them? Then all of a sudden you feel somebody turn around and look right in the eyes of someone who is staring at the back of your head, almost as if you saw them? That happens through the water. Now what  is taking place is the physical body will begin to work with smaller percentages of water. You can literally change the amount of water by as much as 20% over the next 50 years. That is a huge change in  humanity and will lead to a lot of different attributes, some of which we wish to talk about today.

The amount of water in your physical body will be reducing and, therefore, your overexposure to emotion  will also be reducing. In the beginning, whenever humans change on any energy level there is a  resistance to change; typically you grab hold and try A lot of this has to do with these changes that  are setting up throughout humanity. Many of you may feel that you are doing everything right: your life is right and your spirit is comfortable, yet you are angry, anxious or hurt all the time. Perhaps you are feeling things that you have never felt before. This is true, for it is part of the shifts that are happening.  Let us explain something else, too. We have said for a very long time that humans on this planet are  becoming crystalline in nature. We have also said recently that the actual atomic structure of the element  that you call carbon is about to change. 

This isall part of the same change that you will see in your physical bodies, for you are carbon-based  creatures. Carbon and water changing at the same time will allow you to evolve to the new levels very,  very quickly. It also causes challenges, obviously. It also feels that when you have found your stability, all of a sudden the rug moves. Alas, once you learn the rules of the game, the rules are changed. This is  typical of how you grow.  You wait, wait, wait…hold onto everything then suddenly jump forward. That  jump forward has already begun for many of you. Let us speak first of what life will be like when you have less water in the physical body.

Crystallization of the Body

You are becoming crystalline in nature. At some point this will actually be discovered on a scientific level  within the cell wall structures of your physical being. It has already shown up in Botany and in the insect  world; it will be known in the animal world and the human world very soon. It will be verified, but what about crystals? What are some of the properties that crystals have that you have not had up until this  point? Crystal has the highest vibration of the mineral kingdom, and it is a part of you in the same way  that the Earth is part of you.

Since human beings are the highest vibration of the animal kingdom, you resonate quite often with crystalline structure, crystals you consider to be minerals because they are also the highest vibration of  what you call the mineral or Earth substance. This has created a connection and has extended your lives
much further than you know. When you walk into a room there may be all kinds of trinkets, favorites  trophies on the shelf for pictures on the wall for you to look at. Which ones are you drawn to? Generally  you will be drawn to the ones with crystals first. If there is a crystal sitting there, you are most likely to  walk over, pick it up and just hold it or stare at it for a second to see the shards of light as they bounce  around. At that moment it means something to you and it is changing your structure; it is helping you  alter yourself. 

On this planet, women typically live longer than men. You can see it very clearly in your actuarial tables.  We told you before, many of you have believed this is because of war on your planet; war took out many  of the men so men wouldn’t live as long, but that is not true. What has led to women’s longevity is that  they feel more comfortable with crystals close to their bodies than men do. Typically, a man will not wear  a big diamond ring whereas a woman would love to wear one. Because of some of these cultural and  societal differences, typically women will live longer than men; they will deal with stress longer than men. What is happening now is that everyone is starting to become crystalline within their own physical bodies,  so this creates a lot of changes. 

Number one, this is the return of the life expectancies that you  have been watching. Many of you know that the human body is well designed to live past the 80, 90 or 100 years that have been typical for  humans at this point. Nobody can quite figure out why some people living in a certain part of the world  seem to live to age 130. We tell you that even in your lifetime in the physical body you have, it is going to be very possible for you to live 120 or 130 years. As this change starts to happen, it will bring about a  natural longevity that will increase life expectancy of a physical body. This is one of the points you are  looking for that will be triggered by your change in the actual amount of water or percentage of water  that you will be holding in the body. 

Also, there is another energy which has been harnessed and tamed  and used regularly on your planet: electricity. You use it every time you pick up a phone, every time you  walk through your daily life, over and over and over. Humans have become comfortable with electricity;  they know where the boundaries are. They know they cannot stick their finger in a wall socket because it  will bite back, and they learn to live in harmony with this. What is taking place now is that as you hold less percentages of water, as that  process starts to happen to your physical body, you will have a different reaction to electricity and to   electric instruments all around you.

Many have already started to discover this. Especially those of you who work with instruments or  electronics on a regular basis will start to have these wonderful phantom problems as the Keeper calls it.  He says, “There is nothing wrong with that machine. It is haunted.” In reality, the machine is reacting  differently to his energy because he is the one who has changed. Let us explain a couple of things. The  Keeper is going wild right now because we have just made sense of several things that have been  happening to him. He will have to share it another time because we are talking now. We will tell you one  of them since it is a very common one. The Keeper just returned from a two-week trip and his house was completely closed up for two weeks. No one came in and no one went out, except for the guard cat. What  took place when he returned and picked up the remote control to the TV set and turned it  on? nothing. He yells at his wife for putting it in the wrong place or perhaps she did something wrong; that is  typical. 

He pushes the power button again and nothing. He changes the batteries and it sort of works. This time,  one piece of equipment comes on but the other pieces do not work. He works with it a while longer and  after messing with it for about a half hour, it is suddenly working fine. He goes into his office, reaches  down, picks up the control and has exactly the same thing happen. He has changed so much in just the  two weeks he was gone, that the relationship he already created with many of the electrical devices no  longer worked. This is very common with what many will experience. It is much more than this; we are  only giving you little pieces to look for to verify it in your own life.

Reduction of Water within the Body

One of the pieces you will all come to question and want to know more about is reducing the amount of  water in your physical body. We caution you here because it sounds like we are telling you to drink less,  but we tell you that the moment you try to control the amount of water in your body, it will take over and  control you. It will even over flood you to make sure that you will not dry out; it has to do it on its own, and it will. This is not something we suggest you try to make happen, for it will occur on its own. What we will  tell you is that right now all of you have ambient energy that is traveling through your body. It is  microwaves, radio waves, and it is much of the invisible light spectrum that is traveling through your body with no problem whatsoever. There is even a radio transmitter on the Keeper’s belt which is transmitting  his voice to the back of the room so that you can hear it. You have not felt these energies up to this  point. 

However, as you reduce the amount of water in your body you will start noticing that there is an  accumulation of energy in your body occasionally that you do not know how it gets there. As you start to  become crystalline, you will begin to send and receive radio frequencies. You actually have that  capability right now, because many of you have already crystallized the pineal gland and it can be  trained to send and receive. This is part of what we are calling deep contact. Often the deep contact that  is made is done through the pineal gland of many humans right now. It is starting to  take place in other forms, and when this happens humans will develop a new area to compensate for all  this ambient energy that you will become aware of.  It is still flowing through your bodies right now, but  you are not aware of it.

As this happens, you can easily start to become aware of it and f be overwhelmed by it. What can  happen will feel very much like a flu, but without all of the flu symptoms. The Keeper is jumping up and  down again because he had this happen to him last night. He is starting to understand what is going on  here and he has much to say but again, we will quiet him down for it is important for us to finish. What we tell you is that you will feel things differently. Your electrical charge—the energy from Home you have  been carrying that up to this point that holds most of your spirit is water and it is changing. It will be electrical in nature as you go forward because the energy of Home, no matter what you call it, can come to you in many different ways.

New Body Electrics

The challenge comes because humans know how to ground themselves when dealing with the water;  they know how to ground their energy. They know when they have too much or when they are getting too  much emotional energy. But we tell you this will happen especially for those of you who stand in front  of audiences, giving speeches, performing or working with people. Let us say that you work with  people every week speaking publically with no problem. You learned to put this little boundary up and  hold it at bay, talking to the wall if you need to in order to avoid all this incredible energy coming at you on stage. 

You will feel the energy now because those boundaries you have worked with before are no longer in  place. Many of you will start to feel things you have never felt before; they are triggers to start working  with this energy. As you become more and more crystalline, the light will enter your bodies in different ways besides the vibrations that water can carry.

Light Grounding

Now, you will be overwhelmed with light. We have mentioned this before only as a teaser, but now it is  time to bring it in. Light grounding will be one of the keys that you will learn. Not only will you learn how to  do it with your physical being, but you will learn how to do it with electrical equipment. You will learn  how to do it with everything you use in order to harmonize your electronics and your physical being with  the electronics. The Keeper had to replace four sets of batteries before he was finished that day. He  thought someone went through his house and drained all the batteries, but it was actually him. Then he  went into his room and started up his favorite computer, the one he uses all the time, and it would not  boot. It simply would not work. He tried it three or four more times and finally it sort of came up, then  finally the fifth or sixth time it came back completely unharmed. 

It is because it had to adjust to his new vibration. You are working with harmonics already and the sacred harmony is a very beautiful thing to learn. It is your place in the world, where you fit in, but you must also  understand that where you are fitting in no longer holds your energy. You are evolving at an incredible  rate and from that overview of humanity this is happening in the blink of an eye. You are the ones  leading the way, and you are the ones daring to take it to the next energy level. 

We have one final piece to share as well. Because this is also triggering a re-anchoring of the physical  body, the body must always anchor itself or what you call grounding to the Earth. The electrical  connection itself in your own physical body has to have a place to go in order for it to run through the  body. You call this grounding. It is also called grounding in electrical circuits, because it is a return of the  current to the ground or to the final resting place. Literally, what is taking place is that your connection is  changing; human vibrational patterns are changing daily. Your aura photos are going to change  drastically and much of your connection to all of these things that have measured part of your energy  field are going to shift drastically. As such, many of you will experience times when you are feeling  emotions, or not feeling emotions where you thought you should.

Sexual Energy Wave

The final anchoring of the spirit in the physical body is what we have called sexual energy. We told you  several years ago that there would be a new wave of sexual energy on this planet, one that would make  your 1960s seem tame in comparison. At the time there was a huge wave that went through very quickly  and activated everything; this activation is a revival of that. Now, as you move to this new level you will release your own energy templates. You will start letting your energy return to its normal state instead of  trying to hold it within a physical being. As you learn to do all these things you will find a new joy in being  alive, and that is the sexual energy. 

You will find a new light in your smile and we ask you to please not be afraid of it. Embrace it. It is a part  of humanity that is evolving on this planet at an incredible rate. We tell you that it is not just sex that we  are talking about and certainly not just the act of sex, for that is only one small use of this energy. You  have sexual energy every time someone sees your spirit in your physical body. Every time you smile,  every time you can carry that light from Home.  You are being re-wired, each and every one of you so  that your physical body can hold more light while you walk around on this planet. It is your invention; this  is not predestined. The destination of planet Earth is about to come up and you are all walking past it, celebrating, enjoying your lives. 

You are becoming new humans very rapidly. We are so honored just to be here to watch, for this is what  you have worked for your entire life. Many of you have to actually push your way into this particular  lifetime, even having a set of parents that didn’t understand you or going through all kinds of difficulties  growing up just so you could be here right now. We made it! Espavo. You made it! Enjoy these next  steps. If you get scared, reach out and hold each other’s hands and help each other to the next step one  heart at a time. 

This planet is turning into heaven on Earth.

We leave you with three simple, familiar reminders. Treat each other with the greatest respect for there  are many gods on this planet. Nurture one another and clear the path for each other every chance you get. Know that it is a beautiful game and play well together.

Espavo.

The group


Celebrate the Day in Many Ways

I have always been one to celebrate life’s special occasions on the actual day of the event. I am especially referring to birthdays,  anniversaries which include many special moments to rejoice. Steve  teases me because I remind him to celebrate all of the days we have  shared so far in our relationship. Of course there is the wedding  anniversary, the day we first met, the day I first moved in with him, our wedding renewal, the births of our children, the list could go on and  on. Give me any excuse and I will celebrate it! I am sure in the days  together ahead I will come up with many more special days to acknowledge.

In the past I tried to plan out each detail how I would celebrate. I felt the joy and anticipation by doing this  but when things did not go exactly the way I planned them sometimes I would be disappointed. I am  not saying I can’t enjoy the planning but it’s important to be open to the flow. I have learned to adjust to  the holidays. It used to be Christmas was very traditional held at our house with all the details arranged  in my head months ahead of time. As family grew and circumstances changed Christmas has changed being held in different locations and traditions now. At first that bothered me because I did not want to let  go of the familiar but now I feel the time will be different every year in a new fun way. I still plan to  have all the family to our house at least once in a while. The most important part is just being with loved ones during this magical time of year.

As soon as the Christmas season rushed by, New Years was here. Our family did join us at our home  then to commence the New Year and also Steve’s 60th birthday. But tradition was broken once again.  Ever since I can remember I have thrown Steve a January 1st birthday party. With so much going on in  our lives right now I knew I would put myself into stress. Steve said he was not disappointed but still I  wanted to celebrate who he is in a big way with our local staff and friends. So for the first time his party  will be two weeks after the fact. My new motto is to embrace a special occasion all month long. Then you  can celebrate fully with all your heart.

Our grandsons 3rd birthday is March 17th. Since we don’t live in the same state we won’t be able to be  there on his exact date. We will fly to join him at his party which has been delayed until the following  weekend because its fits better with everyone’s schedule. There again I am learning to let go of the  details and appreciate the time when we do express joy together with the people who are so very dear to us.

I think all of life can be a celebration. It is not important to put a date or time when to rejoice. But there  will always be a part of me that will smile brighter and have a little happier feeling in my heart when the  actual date comes along. Deep inside I remember the greatest gift I receive in any celebration is the life I live.

Love and Light

Barbara


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Friday, January 14, 2011

This is a very informative read, and one worth sharing.  Particularly for people who are having a hard time dealing with unemployment,financial troubles, anxiety and depression and who may be turning to drugs and alcohol to cope.  Read on...


ADDICTION - RECLAIMING THE BIOLOGY OF SELF-CONTROL

AMONG THE THIRTY-FIVE thousand people who ran the New York City Marathon in November of 2006 were sixteen former drug addicts, a number of whom joked openly that they'd spent most of their lives "running from the cops." When they crossed the finish line, the distance they had come was far greater than 26.2 miles. Many of them had been imprisoned, homeless, or otherwise destitute when they checked themselves into Odyssey House, a rehabilitation program in New York that treats about eight hundred residents at half a dozen locations throughout the city.

These are the rare, worst-case examples of what can happen to people who completely lose control of their behavior. And while the lives of those addicted to hard drugs such as crack or heroin or crystal meth look drastically different than the lives of those who use or abuse drugs without being hooked, the same principles apply to their brains. Which is to say that the lessons of Odyssey House apply to anyone who struggles with self-control, including those who think of themselves as having addictive personalities.

Scientists are now characterizing behavior such as gambling, compulsive shopping, and even overeating in the same biological terms they use to explain substance abuse. The common denominator is an out-of-control reward system, which some people are born with and some people develop.

Odyssey House has been around since the late 1960s, offering services from counseling to job training, elder care to family reconciliation. In the spring of 2000, an employee named John Tavolacci started taking residents running in Central Park, with the goal of training for a 5K charity run held each fall. "We run in groups with them and talk about what goes into running—the discipline, the structure, the teamwork," says Tavoiacci, who is now Okivssey House's chief operating officer. "Addicts usually isolate themselves, but here they motivate one another, and they see what it means to set goals and accomplish them."

Many of his charges start out walking, and their first challenge is to follow the one rule Tavolacci imposes: no smoking. Then they build up to running the 1.58 miles around the Central Park Reservoir. About a hundred or so residents participate in the exercise program, which is called "Run for Your Life," and those who become serious runners stay in treatment about twice as long as the nonactive residents. "It sounds obvious," Tavolacci says, "But the only thing that we know about treatment is the longer a person stays in, the more likely they are to succeed."

Odyssey House has always used a holistic approach to treatment and emphasizes the importance of community. This is crucial, according to Odyssey House director Peter Provet, because addiction is such an all-encompassing disorder, cutting into every aspect of life, from family to mood to work. "The drug, for the addict, becomes everything," Provet says. Take it away and suddenly there is an "empty vessel" at the core of the body and mind.

"What better way to start filling the vessel than exercise," Provet suggests. "I strongly believe that exercise can serve as an antidote and as a type of inoculation against addiction," he says. "As an antidote, you're giving the individual an avenue of life experience that most have not had—the goals of exercise, the feeling of exercise, the challenge of exercise, the pleasure and the pain, the accomplishment, the physical well-being, the self-esteem. All that exercise gives us, you're now presenting to the addict as a very compelling option."

Inoculation ranks as equally important, given that most addicts fight a protracted, sometimes lifelong, battle with relapse. And Provet sees exercise as the best form of inoculation. "Exercise is directly antithetical to drug-addictive behavior. Because you need lung strength, muscle strength, mental acuity to engage in physical exercise— lots of things that drugs deprive you of. If you're not eating, not caring about your body, letting it waste away, having your mind distorted by being constantly intoxicated, you can't be a serious exerciser. You can't do it."

Neurobiology is just catching up with what twenty years of experience have taught Provet. The way he describes exercise's effect on the addict mirrors what I discussed in chapter 5, about depression. As a treatment, exercise works from the top down in the brain, forcing addicts to adapt to a new stimulus and thereby allowing them to learn and appreciate alternative and healthy scenarios. It's activity-dependent training, and while it may not provide the immediate rush of a snort of cocaine, it instills a more diffuse sense of well-being that, over time, will become a craving in its own right. The inoculation works from the bottom up, physically blunting the urge to act by engaging the more primitive elements of the brain. Exercise builds synaptic detours around the well-worn connections automatically looking for the next fix.

"Not everyone is going to become a marathon runner, but more and more we're going from addict to athlete," says Provet. "Is it for everybody? Probably not. Is it for most people? Probably yes:'

UNJUST REWARDS
As with so many discoveries about how the brain works, scientists stumbled on the first clues about addiction by accident. In 1954 psychologist James Olds and a graduate student named Peter Milner, at McGill University in Montreal, were studying behavior by inserting electrodes into the brains of live rats. They wanted to pinpoint an area related to learning, but in one of the animals, the electrode ended up in the wrong spot. The result was even more interesting than what they were looking for: The rat kept returning to the corner of its cage where it received its first jolt. To the researchers' amazement, they found they could steer the rodent like a remote-control-toy by doling out bursts of electricity. The next day, the rat sought out the same corner. Clearly, the rat wanted the stimulation, so much so that it would ignore food placed in one corner in order to receive the shock in another.

In the most famous of their experiments, Olds and Milner rigged up a lever so the rat could administer its own brain stimulation. After discovering that pressing the lever delivered a jolt. it pressed it about once every five seconds until the juice was switched off. Then the rat pawed at the lever a few times with no result and promptly fell asleep.

The brain area that Olds and Milner hit with that electrode is closely related to the nucleus accumbens, or reward center. and it has been the focus of addiction research ever since. It's a critical node of the attention system, as I described in the last chapter, and it's also important in addiction. The reward center provides the necessary motivation for the brain to learn behavior that brings us things we like or want or need. All the things people become addicted to—alcohol, caffeine, nicotine, drugs, sex, carbohydrates, gambling, playing video games, shopping, living on the edge—boost the dopamine in the nucleus accumbens.

Regardless of the varying psychological effects different drugs have on the mind, they all boost dopamine in the reward center.
As an illustration of the power of drugs, consider that while sex increases dopamine levels 50 to 100 percent, cocaine sends dopamine sky¬rocketing 300 to 800 percent beyond normal levels.

The nucleus accumbens used to be known as the pleasure center, fueling the notion that addicts are essentially looking for a good time. And while pleasure is certainly an initial factor in enticing people to try a drug or their luck at a gaming table, it's not quite right to think of addicts purely as hedonists. Nobody enjoys being addicted. Indeed, by studying how dopamine works as the key messenger in the reward system, scientists have drawn a distinction between liking something and wanting it. "Liking refers to the actual experience of pleasure, versus the motivational state, which is the willingness to work for rewards," says Terry Robinson, a behavioral neuroscientist at the University of Michigan. "Dopamine is involved in this wanting, but it's not involved in liking."

The reward center is where ADHD and addiction overlap, which explains why both problems undermine motivation, self-control, and memory. It is no coincidence that about half of those with ADHD also struggle with substance abuse of some kind. The implications have changed the way scientists describe addiction.

The pivotal issues seem to be salience and motivation rather than pleasure. In this context, salience means something that stands out against the landscape of life, predominating over all other stimuli. Cues for both pleasure and pain send dopamine coursing through the nucleus accumbens to attract our attention so we can take action to survive. For the developing substance abuser, the overload of dopamine has tricked the brain into thinking that paying attention to the drug is a matter of life or death. "Drugs are tapping into the very core systems that have evolved to mediate survival," says Robinson. "They activate the system in ways it was never meant to be activated."

The National Institute on Drug Abuse now defines addiction as a compulsion that persists in spite of negative health and social consequences. Plenty of people use and abuse drugs, but only relatively few become addicts. Why? While dopamine in the reward center creates the initial interest in a drug or behavior and provides the motivation to get it, what makes addiction such a stubborn problem is the structural changes it causes in the brain. Scientists now consider addiction a chronic disease because it wires in a memory that triggers reflexive behavior. The same changes occur regardless of whether the addiction is to drugs or gambling or eating.

Once the reward has the brain's attention, the prefrontal cortex instructs the hippocampus to remember the scenario and sensation in vivid detail. If it's greasy food that you can't resist, the brain links the aroma of Kentucky Fried Chicken to Colonel Sanders's beard and that red and white bucket. Those cues take on salience and get linked together into a web of associations. Each time you drive up to KFC, the synaptic connections linking everything together get stronger and pick up new cues. This is how habits are formed.

Typically, when we learn something, the connections stabilize and the levels of dopamine tail off over time. With addiction, especially drug addiction, dopamine floods the system with each drug use, reinforcing the memory and pushing other stimuli further into the background. Animal studies show that drugs such as cocaine and amphetamine make the dendrites in the nucleus accumbens bloom, thus increasing their synaptic connections. The changes can remain months and maybe even years after the drugs are stopped, which is why it's so easy to relapse. One way to look at addiction is that the brain has learned something too well. These adaptations lead to a vicious cycle in which the basal ganglia goes on autopilot whenever you smell fried chicken, and the prefrontal cortex can't override your actions even though you may know better.

One of the responsibilities of the prefrontal cortex is to assess risk versus reward and to decide whether to inhibit behavior that may cause harm. With addicts, it's not so much that they make bad choices as that they fail to inhibit behavior that has become reflexive. We know from studies in animals and humans that cocaine, for one, damages nerve cells in the prefrontal cortex and even reduces gray matter. And in recent years, imaging studies have showi1 that the prefrontal cortex doesn't fully develop until we are well into our twenties, which could explain why most people who experiment with drugs and get hooked do so as teenagers or during early adulthood, when their inhibition hasn't fully developed. "They end up with a hypersensitive system that wants drugs, and they make very bad decisions," says Robinson. "It's the worst of both possible worlds."

GETTING BACK ON YOUR FEET
There's nothing like appearing before a judge to hasten the development of a teenager's inhibition. A patient of mine named Rusty might have ended up a drug addict, but the prospect of three years in jail scared him into cleaning up his act, and the exercise routine he developed in the process is why he's still on the right track today.

I began treating Rusty the summer after his sophomore year in high school, a few months after he was hospitalized for attempting suicide. Feeling lonely and outcast, he had washed down a stash of pills with a pint of peach schnapps. He had good test scores— along with bad grades and a history of tantrums—but no friends at all. It was clear to me that he suffered from an attention deficit, combined with fairly severe symptoms of what I call social dyslexia, meaning he didn't know how to talk to people or be relaxed and flexible in conversation. Rusty's strategy to be cool and make friends was to dress in all black and sell marijuana that he grew himself.

I put him on a long-acting stimulant— a drug he couldn't abuse—for ADHD, and he picked up his grades a little and did very well on the SATs the spring of his junior year. Still, whenever he felt bored or at a loss, he would take anything he could get his hands on, from cocaine to cough syrup. Home alone one afternoon his senior year, he had a panic attack from too much cocaine and called 911. An ambulance came right away—along with the police, who found drugs in his room. He was arrested for possession and intent to distribute and spent the night in jail.

A court date was set for four months down the road, and his lawyer and I worked out a treatment plan— each week he had to take two drug tests and attend a meeting at Alcoholics Anonymous and one at Narcotics Anonymous. He knew he had to stay clean at least until his court appearance, but he started to crave cocaine. His lawyer told him he'd probably get the maximum sentence of three years in jail, and he desperately wanted help.

Dealing with his cravings was our first order of business, and I told Rusty that exercise could have a huge impact. He didn't like running or sports, and aside from a stint playing soccer as a child, he was essentially physically inert. I had just returned from my first visit to Naperville, and perhaps because of the way he dressed, I thought of a Both girl named Rachel who had greatly transformed herself by playing Dance. Dance Revolution (DDR), the interactive video game in which the player controls the action on screen by dancing on a mat that's connected to the television. The footwork involved is exhausting even to watch, like the tire drill football players practice, except that the game gets faster and faster at each level.

Rusty agreed to try it, and although he felt clumsy at first, he started to enjoy it. Almost immediately, he said, it blunted his cravings. With nothing much to do that summer except worry about whether he'd be going to jail, he used the game to fill his time and to medicate himself. Guarding against boredom is critical because idle time is dangerous for someone fighting a drug habit.

Rusty got to the point where he was playing DDR several hours in the morning and at night, every day. I saw that his energy level and his optimism picked up. I wrote a letter to the judge, and Rusty was put on probation rather than given jail time, on the condition that he would continue drug testing, Narcotics Anonymous, and counseling at college. He took his DDR setup with him and continued doing it every day for a while. Then he joined an intramural soccer team and started going to the gym.

Exercise was a conduit for shifting Rusty's focus to a more productive life. I see exercise as a way of offsetting the feeling of hopelessness and uselessness that a lot of drug users have, and that certainly was a factor with Rusty. The routine and the physical activity gets the brain engaged and the mind moving in a direction other than toward the drug, reprogramming the basal ganglia to wire in an alternative reflexive behavior. Many people retreat to the couch and give up, but being in motion fosters the feeling that you can accomplish something.

A doctor named Gene-jack Wang, one of the country's foremost addiction researchers and chairman of the medical department at Brookhaven National Laboratory, talks about movement in philosophical terms. "In the Chinese language, a subject is an animal, and an object is a vegetable," he says. "You cannot ask a vegetable to jump from here to there. If you don't move, you are not an animal anymore—you become a vegetable!"

Certainly this is a factor with the marathoners of Odyssey House. But even with a milder case such as Rusty's, doing DDR chased the bleakness out of his view of his future. And while most experiences will pale in comparison to the high of snorting cocaine, the possibility of a rich life can help keep that memory in perspective.

Rusty is now in his sophomore year of college, making good grades, and dating a girl who is also committed to staying sober. He's taken a leadership role in his dorm, and he's gotten into rock climbing as well as playing soccer. He even started scuba diving, a family activity that he'd avoided in the past. After a recent diving vacation, he told me that he is constantly amazed to see how rich and colorful natural life can be.

CRAVING A DOPAMINE FIX
What Rusty finally sees—that he can find pleasure without drugs—is vital to resisting the urge. When you talk to hard-core addicts, you often hear that they feel numb to most things. Naturally satisfying forms of stimulation such as love, food, and social interaction are a bland backdrop to the vivid experience of the drug. The normal course of life doesn't do it— they can't feel it.

Some people are simply born this way. A groundbreaking study in 1990 revealed, for instance, that a lot of alcoholics have a gene variation (the D2R2 allele) that robs their reward center of Famine receptors, lowering levels of the neurotransmitter. Presence of the D2R2 allele doesn't guarantee you'll end up as an addict, but it's more likely. While 25 percent of the general population has the variation, in one study researchers found it in 70 percent of alcoholics who had cirrhosis—presumably the most addicted, since they continued drinking in the face of life-threatening liver dc ii-age. In a subsequent study of cocaine addicts, half had the D2rU allele, and 80 percent of those who also abused other drugs had it. Results tell a similar story with gamblers and the morbidly obese; about half display the gene variation, but when we factor in other addictive behavior, it's more like 80 percent. Researchers named this problem reward-deficiency syndrome, and the media declared that scientists had found the "alcoholic gene."

Unfortunately, it's not that simple. Without question, if the reward center isn't receiving enough input, you're genetically predisposed to be constantly craving, relentlessly searching for a way to compensate for the deficit. Reward deficiency also undermines the attention and stress systems: when dopamine is out of balance, the amygdala gets involved because it thinks survival is at risk, and that intensifies the pursuit of bringing the brain to equilibrium. This relates back to why so many people with ADHD are seen as "stress junkies"—cortisol quickly boosts dopamine to improve attention. You can see how this nagging feeling—people describe it as a hollowness inside—could leave a person vulnerable to addictive behavior, from taking drugs to gorging on chocolate to playing video games forty hours a week.

But just because you have reward-deficiency syndrome doesn't mean you're destined for Odyssey House. There are hundreds, if not thousands, of factors that influence addiction, and the drive to find something new and exciting can just as easily turn people into bold explorers, iconoclastic artists, or maverick entrepreneurs or send them down any number of paths where pushing conventional boundaries and seeing the world differently are highly valued commodities.

Not surprisingly, athletes in high-risk sports like skydiving display less inhibition and more thrill-seeking behavior than, say, rowers. A recent study from Holland also showed that, like hard-core addicts, many skydivers don't experience pleasure from typical daily life. Both skydivers and addicts have a higher-than-normal threshold for excitement, but is that the cause or the result of the dopamine-boosting behavior? Other research shows that drugs such as cocaine damage D2 receptors, the slots the neurotransmitter plugs into to signal salience. If you continually subject your brain to an overload of dopamine, the number of receptors will dwindle. So regardless of what your brain looked like when you were born, the more drugs you take, the more drugs you'll need to feel the same rush. The same is true of people of people who overeat: "You need more, more, more to make you feel good," says Brookhaven's Gene Jack Wang.

FIGHT THE URGE, SHAKE THE HABIT
A study in London in 2004 showed that even ten minutes of exercise could blunt an alcoholic's craving. The researchers divided forty hospitalized patients who had just completed detox into two groups: one was assigned to stationary cycling at moderate intensity, the other, light intensity. The next day they switched the groups and found that intense exercise significantly reduced the urge for a drink. This is what happened with my patient Susan, from chapter 3, who used her jump rope to fend off the stress-induced urge to drink wine in the middle of the day.

The biology of stress ties in with addiction in that withdrawal puts the body in survival mode. If you suddenly quit drinking, for instance, you're turning off the dopamine spigot and the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis gets thrown out of balance. The intense unpleasantness of withdrawal lasts for only a few days, but your system remains sensitive for much longer. If you're in this delicate state and come under further stress, your brain interprets the situation as an emergency and sends you looking for more alcohol. That's how a problem at work or a fight with a lover can cause a relapse. For someone who's been dependent on drugs and has altered his dopamine system, the most effective solution to a stressful situation — and the only one he knows — is the drug. But exercise is another solution.

In smokers, just five minutes of intense exercise can be beneficial. Nicotine is an oddball among addictive substances as it works as a stimulant and a relaxant at the same time. Exercise fights the urge to smoke because in addition to smoothly increasing dopa¬mine it also lowers anxiety, tension, and stress levels—the physical irritability that makes people so grouchy when they're trying to quit. Exercise can fend off cravings for fifty minutes and double or triple the interval to the next cigarette. And the fact that exercise sharpens thinking comes into play here, because one of the withdrawal symptoms of nicotine is impaired focus. As evidence of this, one study found that there are more workplace accidents during the Great American Smokeout than on any other day of the year. Many of my ADHD patients use cigarettes to help them focus when they have to write or push through a challenging task, and without the nicotine they feel lost.

Some drugs, of course, dull the brain to begin with. A novel study from researchers in Iran recently examined how exercise affects rats on morphine. Their hypothesis was that since exercise influences dopamine and plasticity in the same brain areas involved with addiction and learning, maybe it would counteract the memory loss that goes along with being high. The scientists conditioned the rats by putting them in a dark box in which the floor shocked their feet, and then they did follow-up tests to measure how long it took the rats to move to another box that was harmless but well-lit (rodents prefer darkness).

The rats were divided into four groups: one group ran on a treadmill and received a shot of morphine before each trial; one ran and received a placebo injection of saline; another received morphine but didn't exercise; and a control. group received neither exercise nor an injection. Both groups that exercised remembered that the dark box was bad news: they hesitated the longest to enter it and were the quickest to leave when they were shocked. Amazingly, the exercise-and-morphine group performed better than the control group, indicating that exercise offsets the mind-dulling effects of the drug.

In the same study, the researchers found that exercise dramatically reduced withdrawal symptoms in the exercise-and-morphine group when-they cut off the drugs— in rats, the signs of withdrawal are identified as "wet dog shakes," writhing, and diarrhea. This fact alone should be enough to convince a recovering addict to lace up his sneakers, and it lends scientific credence to the treatment approach at Odyssey House.

A TALE OF DEPENDENCE
Over the years, I've seen many people with reward-deficiency syndrome. The most dramatic example is a Dutch woman I'll call Zoe, who suffers from severe ADHD and has a tumultuous history of depression, aggression, and a range of substance abuse. Most notably, she was a chronic marijuana smoker for twenty years who believed that self-medicating was the only way she could feel calm and focused.

In reality, she was trying to blot out the frustration and anger of her life. As a child, Zoe told me, she was combative and had severe learning problems. Now forty, she is still prone to tantrums and anxiety. On one occasion, when she was flying to Boston for a visit, she erupted in a panic attack and forced the plane to return to Amsterdam.

Zoe spent thirteen years getting through college, which is a long time even for her field of veterinary medicine, partly because she wasn't diagnosed with ADHD until she was twenty-seven. She received a prescription for Ritalin but first had to go to a detox clinic to give up marijuana. "I was smoking ten or twenty joints a day," she recalls. "When I was in there, I was like a wild animal in a cage." She stopped smoking marijuana for about a year, but then she relapsed and soon fell back into her heavy habit of staying high throughout the day (while also taking the Ritalin and antidepressants).

Although she found a high-level job in her profession, Zoe stalled out in the decade after college and in many ways gave up on developing herself. Because she was always so driven to find an immediate reward, she didn't set goals and strategies to move forward in life. Zoe often complained that she felt like life wasn't worth it. Smoking marijuana, she says, kept her from dwelling on the fact that she was unhappy and discontent.

She had always exercised sporadically—cycling, sailing, and horseback riding—but I raised the subject of doing something on a regular basis. I appealed to her knowledge of medicine and explained how exercise could change her brain chemistry and rewire connections in the pathways controlling her mood, aggression, and attention as well as her addiction. After reading several of the studies I've included in this book, she committed to giving daily exercise a try, and she quit smoking marijuana again. "There was no alternative," she says. "I had to do something."

What she did was get an indoor bike trainer of the type used by serious cyclists to hone their balance and stamina—you pedal on free-spinning drums, acutely aware of the possibility that you could slip off and careen across the room. I'm not sure how Zoe settled on this extremely challenging form of exercise, but it has worked out tremendously well. The balance and precision required to ride on the rollers engages the entire attention system, from the motor centers of the cerebellum and basal ganglia to the reward center and prefrontal cortex. "At first I hated to do it because it doesn't bring you anywhere," she says. "Now I'm very handy on it, and it's beneficial because it makes me concentrate as well as exercise. It's exciting because you don't want to fall down."

As if kicking her habit wasn't difficult enough, Zoe's husband let her in the midst of her effort to stay sober, just before Christ¬mast. I was worried, and so was she. "During the winter it gets cold and very dark in Holland," she wrote in an e-mail. "I was so scared that I would get depressed again and go back on pot, but I haven't. The change comes from the difference between feeling like a loser (smoking) and a winner (exercise)."

Zoe's recovery is tenuous, as it is for any long-term drug user. But she's certainly on the right track. She sends me regular updates about trying to break her record distance on the bike trainer, and she's also taken up the jump rope. Here's a snippet from one of her typically buoyant messages: "I just did 10 minutes of rope jumping, heart rate 140, exhausting but I had to do it. This is so GOOD, because in 10 minutes it feels like a half hour biking! Maybe I'll continue this—it's a FAST REWARD!!! It's the exercise I'm craving nowadays."

A NATURAL HIGH
Some would debate whether Zoe was addicted to marijuana, but there's no question she was dependent on it. She had all the signs of chemical dependency, including the physical and emotional irritability of withdrawal. Studies in rats show that if they get used to a chronic dose of tetrahydrocannabinol (THC)—the active compound in marijuana—and then are deprived of it, the brain floods the system with corticotropin-releasing factor, which activates the amygdala and thus the entire stress system. The rodents experience shaking, tremors, and twitchy movements that peak about forty-eight hours after the last dose. Indeed, Zoe felt like a rat in a cage when she went through detox: along with the physical symptoms, the shutdown of the dopamine system brought on intense feelings of depression and anxiety. The way exercise blunts the symptoms of withdrawal is by calming the amygdala and boosting dopamine.

Regardless of whether there is such a thing as marijuana addiction, studying THC's effect on the brain has provided new clues about how exercise counteracts addiction of any stripe. To begin with, the feeling that often comes after exercise can serve as a harm¬less replacement for the drug high. In a recent study in the British Journal of Sports Medicine, researcher Arne Dietrich wrote that the way people describe runner's high is "similar to the claims of distorted perception, atypical thought patterns, diminished awareness of one's surroundings, and intensified introspective understanding of one's sense of identity and emotional status made by people who describe drug or trance states."

We've been on the case of the runner's high for three decades, and in the last few years the focus has expanded beyond endorphins to include endocannabinoids, a class of neurotransmitters. Endocannabinoids are to THC as endorphins are to morphine—substances produced in the body that elicit the same effect as a drug. Likewise, they both dull pain.

Scientists discovered the endocannabinoids in the early 1990s after realizing that THC binds to specialized receptors in the brain. These receptors didn't evolve for us to enjoy marijuana, obviously, so there had to be some natural substance the body produces for them. What they found were the neurotransmitters anandamide and 2-arachidonoylglycerol (2-AG). It turns out that marijuana, exercise, and chocolate all activate these same receptors in the brain.

Both of these endocannabinoids are produced in the body and the brain when we exercise. They travel through the bloodstream to activate receptors in the spinal cord, and this blocks pain signals from getting to the brain (not unlike morphine). They also move throughout the reward system and the prefrontal cortex, where they have a direct effect on dopamine. When the endocannabinoid receptors are strongly activated, they produce all the euphoric feelings of marijuana, and, along with endorphins, they act as the body's extra-strength aspirin. Doctors are starting to use anandamide to treat pain syndromes such as chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia, and a number of studies have shown that grad-ually increasing exercise can relieve the pain and fatigue associ¬ated with these syndromes. The link between exercise and these natural pain killers makes perfect sense: they evolved to help us deal with the inevitable pain of straining muscles and joints during the hunt.

Unlike endorphins, endocannabinoids pass easily across the blood-brain barrier, which for some researchers, makes them a more plausible explanation for runner's high. In 2003, a group led by psychologist Philip Sparling of Georgia Tech University showed for the first time that exercise activates the endocannabinoid system. Using fit, male college students either running on treadmills or cycling on stationary bikes for fifty minutes at 70 to 80 percent of their maximum heart rate, the researchers measured how the effort affected blood levels of anandamide. The result? Anandamide nearly doubled.

Runner's high itself is difficult to study because it's so unpredictable — even marathon runners don't experience the feeling every time they train. And why isn't there such a thing as swimmer's high? One intriguing theory is based on the relatively new finding that there are endocannabinoid receptors in the skin that may be activated only by all the pounding and jostling of running. Regardless of whether the particular gauzy delirium of runner's high kicks in, Sparling's work clearly implies that the boost in anandamide is at least one reason we feel relaxed and satisfied after moderately intense exercise. Scientists still debate whether endorphins are involved, however, and it seems likely that the overall effect is some combination of these factors.

HOOKED ON THE GOOD STUFF
If exercise acts like certain drugs in the brain, then you might wonder whether it can also be addicting. I get this question all the time, and the short answer is yes, but don't worry about it. Scientists have tested exercise addiction in rats and found that if they have unrestricted access to a running wheel and are given food only one hour a day, the rats will log about six miles a day and eventually run themselves to death. They don't learn that they need to get all of their nutrition during their one-hour feeding. The more they run, the less they eat, and their calorie intake falls short of the output. They are addicted just as they would be to cocaine. Curiously, the experiment doesn't work if a treadmill is substituted for the running wheel; perhaps there's something about the infinite nature of chasing the next rung that keeps the rats hooked. Whatever the case, the running wheel is a perfect metaphor for addiction.

The danger of getting addicted to exercise applies to a very small segment of the population, most notably girls with anorexia or anyone with a body dysmorphic syndrome, a mental disorder defined by a preoccupation with a perceived deficit in appearance.

They eat 1ess and less, and when they exercise they become lightheaded and exhilarated, the high only reinforcing the cycle. They feel great for a short while, and they think they are on their way to looking great. Sadly, their approach will never get them there. But for the vast majority of people, this trap is a remote danger. Even if exercise becomes a dependence—as it could for Zoe, for example—there's little to worry about.

I can think of no better example of somebody with an exercise dependence than ultramarathoner Dean Karnazes, the forty-four-year-old Californian who has appeared on 60 Minutes, The Tonight Show, and countless magazine covers for his mind-bending feat of running fifty marathons in fifty days (in fifty different states). He also ran 350 miles without stopping. Only slightly less impressive to me is that over the past fifteen years, the longest period he has gone without exercising is three days. "I had the flu," Karnazes recalls. "I was still sick, but 1 finally said, Screw it, I need to bust out a run." For starters, his streak says something about the formidable strength of his immune system.

Karnazes was drunk at a bar on his thirtieth birthday when he decided to make a change in his life —at that very moment. He stumbled home, grabbed an old pair of sneakers, and ran thirty miles into the night. He was no alcoholic and has never been into drugs, but the question remains: does this guy have a problem? "Maybe 10 to 20 percent of the time I do think of running as an addiction," he says. "What I really long for is the feeling of bliss or satiety that I get after exercise. It makes me feel complete. I'm most tuned into this when I can't exercise. If I'm traveling or I'm in meetings all day, I can feel it pulling at me. I'll think, Why am I ready to implode? I'm crawling out of my skin here! And then I realize my body needs to move. It's almost a feeling of being trapped."

There is no typical week for Karnazes, but he says he averages seventy to ninety miles—three to four hours on most days. In other words, he moves more in a day than most Americans do in a week. This frightens people. It would be easy to paint Karnazes as a freak of nature, and plenty of people have. When you talk to him, however, it seems that despite the huge time demand of training, he leads a balanced life. He held nine-to-five jobs at Fortune 500 companies for more than a decade, and then became president of a natural snack-food company, before recently transitioning into a professional athlete and author (his book, Ultramarathon Man, is a bestseller). He has two children, ages eleven and nine, whom he tucks in most every night and drives to and from school every day. He typically wakes up at around three a.m., after four or five hours of sleep, to get in his training before the kids need to go to school.

"I have built my lifestyle around running, so I can support this level of activity," Karnazes says. "Perhaps it's an addiction—I don't know; I've never been through psychoanalysis. I'm just listening to my hardwiring. Luckily, I'm not shooting something in my veins or hopping down to the bar every night after work. Exercise is the ultimate drug, right? What drug always works and doesn't have any unhealthy side effects?"

FILLING THE VESSEL
My patients, Rusty and Zoe are inspiring examples of people who have replaced addiction with exercise, instituting routines in their lives that serve as a healthy alternatives to the full-time pursuit of drugs. As I explained, the addict's brain adapts at every level to focus attention and effort around getting the reward. The brain functions the same way whether the addiction is to alcohol, drugs, food, gambling, or any other addictive substance or behavior. As addiction progresses, there is less and less room for anything else in life.

When an addict quits, what's left is emptiness. In this respect, dealing with addiction is similar to battling feelings of anxiety and depression: getting rid of the problem is only the first step. Once the addiction or the negative emotions are gone, the void needs to be filled with some positive behavior for the change to take root. There can hardly be a better option than physical exercise. After all, this is what we're supposed to be doing—moving in the world.

The fact that exercise counteracts anxiety and depression directly can have a huge impact on any form of addiction, as both of these mood states undermine treatment.

A recovering addict who is feeling anxious or hopeless is much more likely to slip in her determination and ability to quit. People are more impulsive when they feel lousy. Both strength training and aerobic exercise decrease symptoms of depression in recovering alcoholics and smokers who have quit. And as I pointed out in chapter 3, the more fit you are, the more resilient you are. If you are flexible in managing stress, you're less likely to reach for that bottle of liquor or bag of chips or pack of cigarettes. Keeping the stress system under control is also important, practically speaking, for ameliorating the physical symptoms of withdrawal, to get through those nightmarish first few days.

Exercise also counteracts more direct toxic effects of addiction on the brain. Researchers looking at fetal alcohol syndrome, for instance, have shown that exposing unborn rats to high levels of alcohol dramatically reduces the birth of new brain cells in the hippocamptis. It also disrupts long-term potentiation (LTP), the cellular mechanism of learning and memory. Studies of adult rats exposed to alcohol before birth suggest that they have difficulty learning.

The exciting news on this front is that both exercise and abstinence from alcohol not only stop the damage but also reverse it— increasing neurogenesis and thus regrowing the hippocampus of adult rats. The same holds true even for unborn rats if their mothers are taken off ethanol and allowed to run. In humans, researchers have recently shown that abstinence reverses some of the neuronal damage caused by prenatal exposure to alcohol, and we already know that exercise rebuilds the alcoholic brain by increasing neurogenesis.

One of the connections I see here is between learning and overall mental strength. If the brain is flexible, the mind is stronger, and this gets at a concept known as self-efficacy. It's difficult to measure, but it relates to confidence in our ability to change ourselves. For most addicts, if they stop to consider how they may be destroying their lives, they suddenly feel like they can't handle anything, let alone their self-control over their addiction. Exercise, though, can have a powerful impact on the way an addict feels about himself. If he's engaged in a new pursuit such as exercise, which involves work and commitment, and he's able to follow through and be persistent with it, that sense of self-control spreads to other areas of his life.

A group of Australian researchers recently put this idea to the test. Using twenty-four students as subjects, they measured the effect of a two-month exercise program on self-regulation, which is a slightly different characterization of self-efficacy. Every two weeks, the students were given two psychological tests, and they kept diaries of their daily habits. The results, published in 2006 in the British Journal of Health and Psychology, are profound. Aside from improving on the two tests, which measured intellectual inhibition (control), the participants reported that an entire range of behavior related to self-regulation took a turn for the better.

Not only did they steadily increase their visits to the gym, they reported that they smoked less, drank less caffeine and alcohol, ate more healthy food and less junk food, curbed impulse spending and overspending, and lost their tempers less often. They procrastinated less and kept more appointments. And, they didn't leave the dishes in the sink—at least not as often.

The researchers characterized self-regulation as a resource that can be depleted but also recharged like a muscle. Essentially, the more you use this faculty, the stronger it gets. And exercise is by far the best form of self-regulation we have.

REGAIN CONTROL
I wouldn't suggest that you model your routine after that of Dean Karnazes, but if you have a tendency toward addictive behavior it's vital to develop some sort of consistent exercise habit.

How much exercise you need depends, of course, on how severe the habit is. But I would say thirty minutes of vigorous aerobic exercise five days a week is the bare minimum if you want to root out an addiction. To begin, however, it's best if you can do something every day, because the exercise will keep you occupied and focused on something positive. I have seen a lot of people who bury themselves in addiction when they lose their jobs, so if you are unemployed, having exercise in place is essential. And while I often suggest that people exercise in the morning, if your goal is to break a habit such as having a drink every night when you come home, exercising in the evening is probably a better strategy. You can use the aerobic shot for a different kind of buzz.

At the same time, you have to be careful not to overdo it and to find something you'll be able to keep up over the long haul. The patients I've told you about all learned that aerobic exercise provides a strong reward, and they have been able to find that sense of satisfaction in a variety of activities. Rusty couldn't do DDR all the time, so he got into soccer again and picked up rock climbing. Zoe started on the rollers, but as soon as spring hits she's outside, riding her bike through the forest. The more options you have, the more likely you are to be able to continue exercising throughout your life.

If you haven't been in the habit of exercising, it can be helpful to join a gym or hire a personal trainer, because spending the money is a strong motivator. If you have an addiction to food, try a quick walk around the block or a few minutes with a jump rope or even a set of thirty jumping jacks—anything to snap your mind out of the cycle of thinking about the reward.

It might sound painfully obvious to suggest exercise as a way of controlling your eating habits. After all, your weight is the sum of a simple formula—the number of calories you take in minus the number you burn. But it's important to remember that exercise's benefits go well beyond the physical aspect of burning calories.

Dopamine produced during exercise will plug into receptors and thus blunt the craving, and over time the activity will produce more D2 receptors and restore balance in the reward system. For someone with a negative body image, shifting the focus from the body to the brain can provide a powerful new sense of motivation.

A lot of people assume that an addict's real problem is just a lack of motivation. On one level, this is true, but what very few people recognize is that motivation is a function of brain signals, and that those signals depend on reliable messengers and intact nerve pathways. When we look at addiction as a neurological malfunction rather than as a moral failure, it suddenly takes on the form of something that can be fixed. It's certainly not an easy task, but it's a lot easier when we use exercise as a tool, one with great versatility. Exercise isn't necessarily a cure, but it's the only treatment I know of that works from the top down as well as from the bottom up, rewiring the brain to circumvent the addictive pattern and curbing the craving. Try it. Maybe you'll get hooked.

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